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Happy Birthday to my mom!!!!

43 today. Hehee. I can remind her how old she is.

We got a sponge cake from someone. I was going to write who the person was but with his job he could come across this post. Maybe. I don't care what i write about myself but if it would affect something important for my parents i think 1st. Btw, my feelings for my parents are the confusing and volatile thoughts of a 14-15 year old. Volatility, very cool.

Someone once told me i was an enigma. Seemed to sum me up. Plus it sounded like an interesting word. I'm up for anything interesting.



Few minutes later:

I'm sitting here while my mom is talking to my bro about his exam papers. I admit my papers weren't spectacular but better than my bro. I at least got A's. I wish he would start caring about his education now. Before it's too late. It's like he doesn't dream for anything big for himself. Or maybe it's coz we don't encourage him. When he thinks of a job we give him the hard facts of how hard he would have to study. He, unlike me, gets discourage pretty easily with fragile hopes. Me, i just want to instantly prove people wrong, so i work hard.

Anyway, hope is a big part of my life. Without hope, i wouldn't be able to live because in a volatile world hope is actually the only stable thing we can hold on to. We can hope that the future will turn out the way WE want it to.

Been watching Project Runway. I love fashion and hope that i can one day pursue a career in the fashion industry. I don't think i would mind starting from the bottom as long as i know i will get to the top, though i don't think my parents would approve any career there. Volatile career.

Volatile is the word of the day peoplezz...hah!

ANTM is pretty cool too. I love artistic programs. I see art! In food (making it is an art ok!), in drawing, in modeling, in tattooing...so many things. Miami Ink. My daily dose of dreaming of the perfect tattoo. If Van can get a nose piercing why can't i get a tattoo?

Rhetorical question. DON'T answer.



I feel soo,
claustraphobic here,
watch out,
no you better dis-ap-pear,
you caaan't,
make me stay,
i'll break away!
BREAK AWAY!

Tokio Hotel fur immer.

ich liebe est. hehe.

Azureen d[-_-]b