chatterbox chick

Sooo hi.

Um, I'm sorry we haven't talked in ages.
But don't take it the wrong way. I miss you.

I just wish you'd ask me "What's been going on in your life?" and mean it.
Not have me explain and stare off into space.

Haha, that's just me talking to blogger.

I don't have a boyfriend. Yet :P

Laily just asked me that question that day. "When will it be our turn?!"
And I said "Never mind. It the wait doesn't matter if he's worth it." :)

I believe that.
But one part of me thinks, BULLSH*T.
AAHAHA.

Oh, I'm ill.
I've got the flu (sticky green mucus yay..pfft), sandpaper throat and a bit of a fever y'all.
It iz de awesomest possumest bomb.
Not.

Like how I described the aqueous substance running out of my nose? Yes, I know you do :)

This is gonna be a random run-around post with thoughts leading to no where.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS.

Old and new don't worry.
I don't forget people easily. Names yes. People, no.

Anyway, celebrated Eddie and Ax's birthday today at school coz we won't be able to celebrate their ACTUAL birthday on that day coz Eddie's is during the 1st Assessments and Ax's I'm not sure.
These guys are awesome people. Love the Cina and the Bitch :D

Listening to Falling Down by Space Cowboy. It's a fun dance song.
Meh, I'm into dance music now.
I don't hate sad songs but I prefer not listening to them. I get sad and why put yourself down when there is so much to bring you up?

I wanna talk about school like I used to about Kota Kemuning school but honestly:

a) I'm too mentally tired to form a post.
b) It's a HONESTLY gotta be there to understand thing.
c) I don't think anybody cares :'/
d) My thoughts are getting more and more personal.

Not a bad personal, more like I think if I blab about what's really going on inside my head, people won't understand and..stuff.
Or worse, people don't actually care.

I'm happy at school and I love talking to everybody.
But there are things, I just don't want to repeat awkward-ness between friends.
I've been more happy in Sapura for 4 months than in SMKKK for 4 years.

How high I am on the outside is how low I feel on the inside :)

Random things I just wanna say here because I feel bad for abandoning blogger for age and plus it's my blog and I can say stuff I want but I won't go overboard.

1. I'm drinking an entire jug of water by myself because I feel utterly dehydrated though God knows why.

2. I love my religion beyond what words can describe at this time in my life :)

3. School has been uber fun and I enjoy EVERY second. Yes, even the boring parts. Coz it means I get to spend time with friends who are amazing and make me laugh so much.

4. On that note, although I laugh and feel like school is amazing, something must be wrong somewhere in me. I've been having 'amazing' headaches everyday. I act normal but see me rub my temple? Yea, 'amazing' headache is on.

5. I love my friends :) I just love you guys.

6. Lynn & Cat have decided to randomly say the names of all the guys just to see if I would blush. And I do. -_-. Sue me. I'm "innocent". :P
But I don't really mind coz what else would give my blood the exercise it needs to rush to my head. PFFFT.

7. Tara and me have decided to help Haiti.

8. I'm very proud of the Form 5's and especially my class for being TRULY supportive of helping Haiti :)

9. Um, I enjoy wearing tudungs :P
I started my mengaji classes and obviously you have to wear a tudung right? But I never use the conventional tudung. I just wrap these amazingly colourful shawls we got from Sabah around my head instead and it looks awesome :)

10. I want to become a better Muslim can you tell?

11. Screw anybody who doubts me or tries and convinces me otherwise :)

12. Life is going good.

13. I know I'm pretty much just crapping now because it's late.

14. Homework is piling up.

15. I want straight A+'s plus SPM.

16. I want to be able to jump up and down and scream at the top of my lungs due to happiness due to the A+'s in SPM.

17. I want straight A+'s in all my exams.

18. I think I should sleep now.

19. I still have to work on mine and Tara's proposition for Mrs. Chee.

20. I wanna find somebody to love. :P Though that's not important. I think?

Bought shoes for the wedding today. Love love love them :P

I actually have nothing to say at this moment in unsuspended time.

I just feel like I should say something on this blog.

I use to be able to write alot.

I think I can still do that but I kinda feel embarassed suddenly.

It's like, why the heck am I writing these things? People don't care.
Plus I alway ramble and get excited over things that other people take for granted.
I make something insignificant seem like such big news.

There I go again.

Anyway, will be off soon. I'm soo happy.
Relaxation and fun!

I need it. I'm so stressed just at the THOUGHT of studying & SPM that it has rendered my brain paralyzed.
Not to mention the fact that my house seems like a total disaster area due to packing and actually having 5 people in the house for more than 2 weeks already (-_-')

So to put it in that Sabahan way : 'Samak kepala aku'

I need to make a list.
It helps to make a list. Either mentally or just writing stuff down.
Sometimes when I don't know what to do and like I have too much stuff going on I'll do that. However being mentally paralyzed (plus having to organize the trip) I can't seem to do even that. Help..

Hope this trip will relax and refresh me. I need to get out of the house and forget about everything and just really enjoy myself. Haven't really been doing that these hols.
Seems like there are so many activites and events that I feel like I haven't even enjoyed the holiday properly. Scheisse.

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