Tried but Failed.

It's just a phase.

Of course i know that. *shrugs*

But...
(there's always a but)

Why...
The overwhelming urge to go up to you.

The simple contentment just walking next to you without you even realising.
I'm blushing beetroot red.
Smiling a small smile.

Replaying the time we talked.
2-3 minutes.

Knowing, it was simple banter.
Hoping it was shy flirting.

Deciphering every move.
Hoping it was something more.
Knowing it should never be more.

Wishing something would tip the scales.
Either way.
So i could hate your guts.
Or think you're the most interesting person ever.
It wouldn't matter.

S'long as i don't have to keep going through this median state.
CRUSH...
In my case,
always ends up being crushed.

So,
I thought.
How can i prove it's just a state.
A phase?

I did what i always do when i feel like i can't wait.
To get this stupid feeling over and done with.
It works ALL the time.

I try to look for a flaw.
Something.
That could tell me.
He's just another dude.

I looked for your Friendster.
I found it.

I read your profile.
You want to meet your dream girl.
Shiver runs through my skin.
You're THAT kind of guy.

I still haven't gotten over you.
I checked your pictures.
I saw you at your awkward Form 3 stage.
Guess what.
I thought you looked cute.

I tried.
Really i did...
I'm not over you.
Sorry girls.
Guess this phase will last a bit longer.

It's kinda sad...
Another crush crushed.
Not because i stopped.
Because i know i can't.

Sorry for the emo love sickness.
I just want something to happen.
Like i said.
To hate his guts or like him more.
It doesn't matter.
S'long as i'm out of this crush.