I dislike you intensely.

Hate is too strong a word.

But it's very close to what i'm feeling...
I dunno. I shut off sometimes when i get overwhelmed and i lose all emotion.

Been playing some situations through my mind and all of them end up with me swearing like a sailor.
Don't ask me why.
Because something happened and this rather emo post all boils down to my damned insecurities.
All i want at this very moment is to get a call. From someone, anyone and for them to tell me it's all ok and that they care about me.

Like hell i'm stressed.

School exams.. Thank God they're almost over.
Practical piano exam.. Just strike me down now.

HOLIDAYS!

Dear holidays,
Please allow me to relax and enjoy myself for a little bit eventhough my practical exam is right around the corner. Let me hang out with my best friends and just blow my brains out laughing with them. Give me time to sleepover at Fatin's house and just overall spend the time we lost in 3 years of not seeing each other at all. Let me meet up with Emily who i miss dearly. Let me hang out with the people i have not been able to hang out what with being in another class, i.e. Mauli, Nish and Kausy. Let me have a kickass holiday in Sabah and let me see all my cousins at Nadia's wedding. Last but not least, let me unwind my mind and give me the chance to reflect on the very out of the ordinary and rather scary situation i'm in right now.

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Totally unrelated but it's my blog so wtfv!

To my friends,
The Azureen you know is the person Azureen wishes she could be 24/7. When i'm with you guys, you may think i'm fearless. The first one to want to join something that'll give me an adrenaline rush, the one who wants to do a million and one things, the one who will say "Just do it." like in that Nike ad, the one who hardly lets anything ruffle her feathers, the one who seems to have a cool and calm collected answer to everything and will say the most outrageous thing randomly. But the fact is, I'm really insecure. It took alot of effort in the beginning for me to even go to school because i was so damn shy. But thanks to you guys i've come a LONG way from that girl in form 1 who couldn't even look a guy in the face. And i realise now that you guys know me pretty well because everything i have just written you guys were the ones who opened up my eyes and showed me what i can be. I love you guys soo much and i can't wait for the Hols where can go out and scare people around us with our crazy antics.
Danke für Sein meine Freunde.

Te amo tanto solamente soy tan inseguro que es asustadizo.
Zurich